What to do with the last few weeks left

This weekend I have been hanging out in Bilbao pondering what I should do with my last few weekends. It feels as if I barely have any time left, which is bittersweet. I am excited to see my friends and family soon, but I wish I had one more additional month. I still have so many places that I want to go to, unfortunately I don't think I have enough time to hit all of them. Hopefully next weekend I will be going to Alicante to visit the south and soak up the sun! I have yet to head down to the south and so this is my first and last opportunity. After that weekend I have one weekend that I need to fill and one weekend where I am going to San Sebastian and then I head home!

I am thinking that in the open weekend I have left, I could do a solo trip to Portugal. As much as I would like others to join me, I think most people are staying in Bilbao, but I still have the travel bug. I also still have not yet been to Portugal and it is so close that I feel like I should go at least once before I leave. This means that I can't go to Madrid, but honestly I don't mind too much.

Aside from traveling, school has been pretty laid back so far and I am actually enjoying the content of what I am learning. The biggest struggle I have is getting up early in the morning to drag myself to class. At this point in time, it is also so hard to find the motivation to study because all I want to do is soak up the last couple weeks I have left. The sun has been shining in Bilbao and more often than not, I find myself having an internal battle of whether or not I should stay and study or go and walk around the city in the sun. I have spent most of today studying and so I am hoping that it will be enough for my test tomorrow. An interesting thing that I realized is that study abroad classes are different for everyone. Some people come in with the intention of just traveling and not focusing on studying, while others come in and fixate on studies with little travel. Sitting in the middle has been extremely hard. On one side, I want to travel and make memories that will last me a lifetime and getting a B in a class instead is worth it. Yet at the same time, I sometimes feel guilty for missing out on things when I have to study or focus on classes. Even over time, the feeling never really settled and the last couple weeks is even worse because I have so little time left.

At the end of the day, there is no right or wrong decision. I have to make the decision for myself and not stress one way or another. This mentality I've been trying to keep up with is pushing me to take this solo trip to Portugal because I probably will miss out in Bilbao, but I would rather see a new place than have fear of missing out.

This post is different from my usual weekend travel posts, but that is exactly the reason that I wanted to share it. It is important to explain that travel abroad has both its ups and downs. Internally, I have grown so much but that doesn't mean it comes without struggle!!